Tue, 25 May 2004 19:24:25 GMT
My Work Is Done Here.
Blogging is hard to quit for many reasons. Not least because once you've made the decision to quit, you need to blog about it. It's like a glue, or something.
I've been thinking about whether I should stop, and if I stop whether I should say I'm stopping or just, well, stop. Or whether this is just another temporary impasse or blockage. If I had to call it today, then I'd say I'm stopping. But you can never say never, so to speak.
What's brought this sudden change of heart? Frankly, and I'm not sure if I'm 100% on the ball with this, it's an identity crisis that was quietly baked in from the very beginning but which lately, has been surfaced and exacerbated by my recent spate of meetings. In short, my blog self is not my entire self. I've been cool with that as long as both of those selves never appear together in the same room. When that happens, it shines a spotlight right on top of that partial disclosure or split identity issue.
This isn't a profound real life personal identity crisis thing, fear not, it's just something that I've recently come to notice and realise is a conflict in my blogging terms of reference, and one which seems to have mortally wounded my blogging self.
Perhaps this blog was a journey of self development or discovery and I've just reached it's natural and inevitable end. I'm not sure.
What I am sure about is that I have no motivation to continue this, but that is not to say that I intend to absent myself from this place or community entirely, or that I'll never 'blog' again in the future. But if I do, it'll probably be different.
In whichever capacity I choose to involve myself in the future, I should say that I have enjoyed myself enormously, made some great friends and relationships and hopefully have spread a little worth or value around to make my participation in this community vaguely worthwhile to a few people.
Take care, I'll see you around.
Bye GT, We'll see you around, and your public thoughts will be missed.